i could go back to the same place, same feelings i could definitely try to pull her back from the past dress like her, eat like her, suffer like her sit on a bench and drink wine with a friend, like her but its not what this is all about maybe it isnt about going back maybe it isnt about her at all anymore maybe the person that i was felt such an enormous pain that she decided to transform into the person that i am now into me - confused, scared and lost me and the thing is, i still dont get it in my memories, she had everything she had the tools, she had the vision, she had the right attitude but maybe the pain from now seems more desperate than the pain before just because i dont remember it clearly or just because i decided not to look away anymore i would still like to connect with her since our last goodbye was surrounded... Celý článek... ❯

once upon a time i was blessed with colorful life tasting all the different flavours every one that i could find but all that is different now when life tastes just like waiting for the next morning for the next youtube video that catches my eye for the next cigarette for the moment when all of this fog will miracously go away "the pandemic is over, you can be free again" - plays like a song of redemption in my brain over and over again waiting for that one moment so that everything else will fall into place seven months of my life could easily turn into seven years into transforming what once was a circus (not always a nice one, but still somehow fullfiling) to a quiet, sad eternity full of people who lost their spark full of people that i know better than i knew my lifelong friends full of people that i didnt choose and that didnt chose me i know with confidence every mole, every pore, every wrinkle on their face i know what every... Celý článek... ❯

Unconsciously concious decision to move forward only with the ones  which are the opposite of me - creatures from another galaxy into their image, i can project anything make them feel adored just for being alive there is a thin line between what you dont understand and what you intentionally close your eyes to welcome to my favourite pedestal  i will be grateful if you just hold my hand glad i found a dealer for my beloved chemical i watch the city lights while we´re driving in your car slowly but surely escaping from the dangers of my mind our thoughts slowly dissapearing into the night Unconsciously concious religion I worship my own emptiness on sundays im drowning in a lake of feelings, in my own void in the only objective fact, the only logical feeling that im alone, always alone, completely alone i myself, am the opposite of me a creature from another galaxy into my image, i can project anything resent my own being, just for being alive there is a... Celý článek... ❯